It’s a few weeks into the semester and for some reason I still don’t have my schedule memorized. I’m only going to, maybe, three of my classes on a regular basis and I feel totally overwhelmed.
In addition to all this, there is one class that I have never gone to all semester. And now that it’s been a few weeks since classes started, it’s pretty much too late to go now. I figure out what the class is – or at least I think I know what the class is – so I go check it out. I have no text book though. I don’t even know what the teacher is talking about. Am I even on his class roster?
I never go back to the class because, well, it’s just too damn awkward. And then come the semester’s close, I get major anxiety that I am going to fail a class.
Then I wake up.
Because this was all just a dream.
I graduated a million years ago.
Why am I still having panic-attack-induced dreams about missing class in college?
This isn’t the only recurring dream I have with this issue. I’ve have dreams about high school classes too. I constantly dream about forgetting and/or losing my high school schedule and not knowing what my next class is or where I have to go for it. I have dreams where I haven’t shown up to a specific class (usually science class because… science?) all year. I have dreams about English class… A LOT of dreams about English class… where I either freak out about having to go to class because I didn’t read a book or write a paper. It’s never-ending.
So why am I having these dreams about missing class?
I have no fucking idea.
Why are fears I had years ago still ingrained in my mind?
Is it because I was SO afraid of forgetting about classes, tests, and papers back then that the fear sticks with now? Is it because I’m physically a grown up but mentally still a child? Is it because I’m crazy?
Who knows. According to this site dedicated to dark dreams (lol, idk if school is dark but okay), it has to do with FEELING BEHIND IN LIFE, which of course it does because this is the story of my life (and this website!).
Has anyone else had these types of dreams before or am I just a straight up pile of anxiety? I also once had a dream I ate my barre socks once, but let’s just pretend that never happened.